Sad love song

What am I thinking right now?

 Actually, I was feeling so sad and I don't know. I'm just thinking.

It's like I question myself why I'm always the one who always give but then it's me who's gonna lose. The effort was only mine, am I the only one loving? It's not that he's not doing his part, but most of the time I was always there to fulfill his empty spaces. Those memories we had everytime we are together was always in my heart. I even made things like diaries for treasuring those. Sometimes I get disappointed to him because he was just like doing nothing most of the time-- He was always doing something else. I just close my eyes whenever I'm feeling this for me not to say a word that might hurt him. Even though he's like that I know everyone has their own flaws and to accept him will make it better. Hmmm, I just smile despite of those.

God is good. There is always a room for change, a moment that you can be able to improve yourself. But then, I believe that it's still good to love him for everything he has and he doesn't have. With His guidance we can be able to make it through. At this moment I have finally realized that, LOVE is the most important ingredient in all of this world. Without it, we won't be able to accept, forgive, and realize. I just hope and pray that someday we can still be together- strong and united. 

For our everyday arguments, there is always a smile after those.In our silent cry, there is always laughter.In our uncountable quarrels that led to frowns on our faces, there is a kiss of a happy memory.

I love being with him and what will I do? Sacrifice the love because he's always pissing me off? NO.
I chose to stay and as long as we're together I'll face the consequences and make my patience longer.

P.S.
I love you!
Thanks God :)

I drew this :)

Prelude

"Looks like we made it, look how far we've come my baby.."

I am now committed for almost one year and 2 months and to be exact, for 14 months and 12 days. We've been to hardships, arguments which lasts for an hour, being unfaithful and more.. But we don't regret those - it's a way to make our relationship stronger than ever, and besides, these are roots to have our happy moments.

Everytime we have misunderstandings, we always end up being alright with great smiles on our faces. During those happy times, we forget our fight like nothing happened. We cry, but we always laugh and smile if we have to. That's how our transition goes. But as it go longer, we know each other's strengths and weaknesses. We tend to be comfortable to be with each other. We both thank God that He led us to each other.

In this, you can see my Blue Heart's Lullaby. Between him and I with God our center. Through songs we can express feelings and thoughts that we can't even when we speak. It's like translating our heart beats to songs.. full of fantasies and Love. 

That's me and him during our Field Trip. I had so much fun with him!  ♥